Old/New Life.

Wow, I haven't blogged in the longest time. But, I plan to start up again. Starting now. Well a lot has happened. First off, I moved to Maryland. surprise much?, yeah i know. Well I guess you could say this move was good and bad. Bad because i had to leave my bestfriend and practically my life.. I was finding myself there.. in Florida, i mean. But here in Maryland, something major has happened. The way I dealt with moving was not good, not good at all. I guess it wasn't just dealing with the move though it was dealing with everything from my past. I have given it up though, it was a really stupid idea of me to get addicted to something like that, but I am over it. and its changed me. I can say.. that I am a new person. I can also say that, I found myself, my life, who I want to and need to be, and my faith. God was definitely speaking to me this past month. When I first got to Maryland, I was hearing the verse John 10:10 pretty much everywhere and still am. For awhile, like the first couple of weeks I was here I just ignored it and wasn't thinking anything of it. Than once I though God was trying to speak to me, I decided to check it out. John 10:10 says " The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. " I probably read this chapter fifty times and the verse alone five hundred times. I was trying so hard to get it, to try and see what God was pointing out to me. I started to realize that I was getting crept away from God, and it was killing me and destroying my life. I was convinced that God just didn't want me, and wasn't interested in helping me or loving me or forgiving me. I was WAY off. I realized that God wants me to life my life to the fullest, and he wants me to live it happily, and not dwell on negativity and spend it with the people I love, and make right choices. But more importantly, He wants me. He wants me to live my life happily and to the fullest with Him. So Ive completely turned my life around. I no longer am struggling alone, I have God by my side. I do have my hard days though. I used to be giving up slowly, and not happy. But God has put that happiness in me again. I'm better. I no longer dwell on what Ive done. I do have some moments, where i wonder why God took me back into His gracious loving arms. And it is still a struggle of mine to not do some things again. But I just remember there is better and the better is God. I cant believe that I was just barely making it without Him, He saved me. I am now redeemed and my chains are gone. Now, my goal is to grow even more in my faith have a close relationship with God, help the people that need it. I will not dwell on the past, I will not focus on my future, I will focus on the Here and Now. So I have changed in many ways, I have found my passions and my faith and my life. Im okay.